Forever & Always

I'm listening to Forever and Always by Taylor Swift. It's on her Flawless album which my cousin recommended to me, it's amazing. I would love to be able to write music the way Taylor Swift does, it makes me jealous. Anyway, last night I found out why she wrote the song, she said on Ellen that it's a song about Joe Jonas. Maybe I'm being biased but I started to dislike Joe, but not Nick of course haha. Either way, today I had been replaying this one song on my iTunes and it's very true for all heartbreaks.

Every time I hear the chorus of this song, I think of my boyfriend and our relationship of 9 months together. Even though I'm only 16, I feel I had thought too much about the future since I was very young. I guess I blame my parents for creating this feeling where because of them it felt like I shouldn't trust people because even the one you love and have a baby with could leave you so easily. This feeling soon disappeared though, because once I went into Seth Low I.S. 96, I met people that treated me really nice and I slowly took down this wall that I built up, but there was a moment even in Junior High School where I was disappointed in friendships. Now I'm in my third year of high school and last year I met my boyfriend, I guess what I want to say is that 'Forever and Always' reminds me of what might happen if people trust too deeply, like what my parents showed me. It's like a reminder of the past with my family and friends. I don't know if others can hear the disappointment in the verses that Taylor sings or maybe it's just me but I feel it through her words.

This song has really made an impression on me that I had to write a blog about it. These are my favorite verses of the song to me:

"I hold onto the night where you
looked me in the eye and told me that you love me....
I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called...
I flash back to when we said forever and always"

Heres the song:

THE END.

First Time

It's two days after Thanksgiving, and a day after Black Friday. I lined up with a couple of friends in front of Best Buy for around 10 hours all together while they were there for more then 16 hours. I got my first camcorder, and I immediately feel attached. It's incredible, it feels like I am able to capture the world with my eyes with this camcorder. So odd right? I guess I'm losing myself.

Tonight's one of my close friends birthday party, and I guess I'm going to drink a bit but i know my boyfriend is going to be there to help me if anything. I should be starting homework soon, it's really weird creating a blog and everything all in one shot. It's one of those times where change happened, hopefully this is a good change.