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okay, since many people are on tumblr. i'm going to flow with the mainstream.  I have decided to create a Tumblr. :) hopefully i'll have better luck on tumblr. =x Happy Blogging!

Happy New Years

Wow, I have definitely been ignoring my blog. I apologize blog, LOL! :)

Happy 2010, the year I hope I will be experiencing many changes in my life. Anyone have new year resolutions? I have realistic ones this year, but I definitely must work on it. It's was a crazy 2009 and hopefully everything has turned for the better. I must thank Oppa for being there for me and making me focus as always. Hopefully one day my mother will come around and realize i'm not such a crummy daughter.

Oppa, I want to thank you for everything you've done for me lately. You're always there for me, and listen to my problems. I wish I could return the favor and be there for you whenever you need me too. Hopefully, I'm meeting your expectations, haha. Even looking at you makes me smile, it's now become a daily part of my life, smiling for no apparent reason when I see you. Please continue to love me and take care of me as you have done so for the past year. I hope we can always wake up to each others smile and silliness. You cause me to laugh till my stomach hurts and I'm ticklish all over. You're the best, and you make me feel like I'm always on cloud nine. :)<3

Well, apparently my blog entry for the new years became a love letter to my oh-so-lovable oppa :). I hope everyone has a good year. I promise to write more often. Heh

About Me!

I think it's time for me to talk more about myself..(as if i haven't been doing that already).
So from now on i'll have this post as a way to talk about me, and add more about me as the days continue, because i feel like that little thingy that you have to click isn't as fun as having a whole entire post!

FIRST! What's in my School Bag: I will use a picture to display what bag I used today and what was inside.Today i had:

• used a Yellow Jacobs by Marc Jacob Tote.
• Staples Spine Guard 3 Subject Notebook.
• Edward R. Murrow Planner.
• Pink and White wallet from Fossil.
• The Things They Carried by Tim O'Brien.
• My Ipod Classic.
• Masterlock
• Dial Hand Santizer
• Johnson and Johnson Band-Aids
• My Keys with a MickyMouse keychain from Disney World (a gift from my cousin), Croissant toy from Kid Robot, and a 4GB Sandisk USB.
• FujiFilm 10megapix. Camera
  
• last but not least, my PalmCentro<3
  

Basically, everything i carry is necessity and carry out my daily activities in school. I recommend using these specific items for school, maybe not the cellphone, camera, keys, wallet, and planner.. LOL :)

Okay i'll update again next time..with something else about me. (: laters<3

Happy Halloween!!

Trick or Treat! :)

My mom asked me last night, about what I was going to do on Halloween. She was expecting me to tell her that I was planning to go Trick or Treating, however, to her surprise...I didn't! :) I told her I wasn't going to go Trick or Treating, because I had no child to go with as an excuse, and also...I don't enjoy half the candies I receive anyways.

Right now it's raining in New York, so I'm pretty sure not a lot of people are even out. Unless, they are all partying in the club or something. Whatever. I just came back from my boyfriend's house, I enjoyed spending time with him and his family. Well, now since the fun is over, I'm going to do homework...haha. I do hope everyone is having a fun and safe Halloween. Hope you kids get a lot of treats, and the older teens - adults get to have fun dressing up or just partying.

Before I go, I'd like to introduce a WONDERFUL song,
the song is "You and I" by Park Bom (2NE1)
You and I together, it just feels so right.

What is UP with High School?!

So, it's already almost November! Darn it, it's been over a month since I last blogged about anything. Right now I'm at home sitting on my bed with my laptop, typing on my Blogspot, and my Poland Spring next to me. I sound very chill, however, I'm faced with so many problems. I'm 17, I don't have my permit, my mother just can't seem to trust me, I may not graduate on time, I've been working on College applications and supplements and on top of all of this stupidity, I need to pay a @#$^&$&# load of dues for school and that means I can't shop!

September was pretty much cool, I had my 17th birthday at a thai restaurant for dinner with my friends the weekend before my birthday and I also had a buffet dinner on my birthday with family. Skip a few...weeks and then I had to take the horrifying SAT I on the 10th of this month! Come to think of it..the results should be out sometime this week. Senior activities are something I look forward to, like our Field Day. While other students are taking their PSATs or stuck indoors to do some work, the Seniors get to go outside and take pictures, compete in sports, or just hang out on the field. Hoping to have other fun activities like this throughout the year. Last week was our school deadline for college applications, and now that one part is over. Thank god!

Skipping boring information, oh well today after PM School, I had a conversation with 2 of my buddies. We were wondering how when we entered high school as Freshman, we would respect the Seniors and Juniors, and try to make friends with Sophomores sometimes. However, we realized that in Murrow, some Freshman and Sophomores have been giving us attitudes and disrespecting us! Not to make it sound like Seniors control the school, but we do 'kinda' have first priority in everything. So, my friends and I came up with this theory; the Freshmans believe that because they are finally in that stage in life where they are in high school, they feel like they are above all. Sophomores believe that because they are no longer Freshmans, they have all this power and feel like they are highest. I would hope this is not true, because that would mean that they are very naive.

Moving on! For the past few months, life has been getting a bit better as I continue to live. Haha, I guess there's just this someone that I'm thinking of right now and I just have to smile thinking about him. It's really weird, because even though I'm naturally really loud and over-energetic, with him I really want to be quiet and like soft. Gosh! I'm starting to tear thinking about him, I'm pretty sure I've never felt like this with anyone. Not even my own family members, sigh, what to do? I don't even know!

EDIT!
WHOA, so anyways..i had two videos up but, those videos got deleted due to "term of use violation"...however i'll leave the title of the songs for you guys.

1. Ring Ding Dong by SHINee
2. Bad Girl by B2ST (BEAST)

Let the School Bells RING!

SCHOOL IS STARTING FOR ME!

i think right about now...everyone in NYC is starting/attending school now. Gosh, i know this summer was the best summer vacation I've had in the past 5 years. LOL :) So many happy things happened and I'm glad to start this school year again. I can't wait to see my program. hopefully it'll be good. T_T;; no more cutting class Cece. I promised Oppa to study hard and graduate this year. which i will! :)

i don't have much to say..but i thought i should write something. This past month has been great..the days are breezy and nice. The night's for the past month has been pleasant as well. I've also been spending a lot of time with oppa, and now my room is green! Thanks to Funari, Albert, Anthony and Oppa. :] I feel a bit different..but i know i'm the same lazy cece...i'll try to work very hard and fulfill my requirements to graduate this year. 2010! COME ON CECE! hwaiting.

ALSO! I need to talk about how much i can't stand these netizens..i've been reading about Jaebeom quitting 2PM and how it's mainly because of these over exaggerated comments from something he said in the past. REALLY NOW? if you're called a fan, you wouldn't ever turn your back on your idol over something that dumb. Anti-fans are so pointless...now i've become so neutral towards every group. i don't even care anymore..the point is to just enjoy the music...or if you don't enjoy it..stop listening. SHOOT! Okay..that's all i'll rant about today. :)

have fun in school everyone ~

Summer 2009

Hey CECE here,

How is everyone's summer coming along? Ah~! So much happened to me and it's so long to type out. I feel a little guilty not writing for so long though. For the past 2 months, I've been calming myself down a bit. For a month now, I have been volunteering for YMCA in Chinatown. Doesn't sound very exciting, because it's not suppose to be; but I feel really good. I made a couple new friends and although I haven't really been contacting my old friends, everything is fine to me. I don't really have much of an urge to go out and break my mothers rules. I think that's why I haven't gotten yelled at for a while, and like been trusted more by my mom. I like this feeling, where I don't get in trouble. Ah even when it's 3am, I feel really like...relaxed? I didn't really have to think about much, and i think that's a good thing right?
Anyways, volunteering is only 3 days a week; Monday, Wednesday, Friday. On Saturday's, I have an SAT Prep class. I find it pretty cool too..like other than homework and studying, but that's what I have Tuesday and Wednesday free for. I also signed up for a Library card last Tuesday. Ah, I feel a new me, do you feel it? Haha...
I always have this urge to include Oppa in my blogs. During this whole year, Oppa has been like the person I talk to most. I think it's like...he seen me go through quite a lot of things in this dramatic year for me. No matter what happens to me, I feel like I could talk to Oppa and he would have something to say to somehow make me feel a lot better. Haha, he also does things with me...like when i went to the beach last saturday. It would've been just my cousins and her friends. Oh and her brother...my youngest cousin. Thank goodness Oppa went with me to the beach, lol...i'm really greatful for an Oppa like him. (:

I don't know what to say but ...I promise to update more often. Haha...i'll end this off with a video?

2NE1 is love. so head over to YGLadies

Last Day of School!

School's out for us High School kids in New York City! Time to hit the beach and vacation all over the world, right? Not right. DAMN THE REGENTS! after regents week, then we should feel free to kick back and relax.

ANYWAYS! I've been doing a lot of studying and homeworking recently...it's quite amazing for some one like me. Today was the last day of classes, gosh it was a relieving day. Took pictures and had some laughs. Congrats to you class of 2009 ! but but but..of course...2010 is here to kick ass!

What did everyone do today ?

OH yesterday i went to watch Star Trek and The Hangover.
MOVIE REVIEW TIME!

Star Trek Rating : B+
When I came back from the bathroom and the movie had just started. At that moment my eyes were glued unless i was looking down for the popcorn or rasinets. LOL! James Kirk and Spark is amazing. The acting in this movie was awesome, and maybe the movie's plot might have been a little bit fuzzy, but the effects were so great. I heard the movie wasn't very good from Star Trek fans, but since i'm not a fan..i liked what i saw. haha who agrees Spark was good looking? hahaha! and that guy from harold and kumar was so ...surprising..anyways. if you haven't saw the movie already..go watch it.

The Hangover Rating: B-
HAHAHA is all i really feel like saying, but of course that is not an actual review. I thought it was so entertaining, but a bit cliche...i don't know if anyone else felt like he would already be on the roof. The whole baby thing was so cute...haha..."don't do that at the table..." :) I really can't comment...but GO WATCH IT.

"Mommy's Little Girl"

I thought I wouldn't need to blog about something so stupid. I don't know if it's because I'm just a brat or something but I think in my life, the most unfair person is my mother. "Mommys' little girl" she always calls me, but I'm turning 17 this year and a month ago she set my curfew from 10am - 4pm and only on weekends. Honestly, I was already extremely happy with having a curfew, no matter what my friends say about it being "failed" and early. I always think of the brighter side of things, "my mom is strict with me because I was bad in the past". To be honest, the worse things i've done really is because I would love to be free..which i'm obviously not. See back in 7th grade, i would wake up in the morning so I could go play handball...so one time i woke up at 5 in the morning on a saturday to play and my mom found out and called everyone i ever called for the past month. Honestly, I understood it all...i got diciplined too..she came from new jersey in the morning to beat me with a ruler.. but what i don't get..she still uses it as a reference to yell at me now when it was 5 years ago.
I love my mother...but everytime she threatens me telling me not to call her mom...i get closer to saying okay. She always overreacts to the smallest thing. Today is definitely not my day, and when she yelled at me over the phone and told me not to call her mom because i'm stressing her out. That, literally made me so angry..i was so over being mad but she accuses me for the dumbest things. I have this cutting addiction because I am not allowed to hang out afterschool and I used to stay home on the weekends too...and the only time i was allowed to go out was with my cousins. REALLY i understand i make mistakes and i'm not the brightest student in the world but she never sees her own problems in the way she talks and acts. She says I raise my voice at her...when that's HARDLY ever the case.
The other night she asked me why I don't talk to her...the reason is...because she'd only get upset at my honesty. With my friends, i'm extremely honest...if I was honest with her..we wouldn't be talking. For real though, my mom in my life...has provided me with some of the clothes on my back, some of the food that went through my body, my electronics but she tells everyone as if everything of mine was given by her. I'm raised by my entire family...and my thoughts of stuff is pretty different compared to others, because my family's view influence my own.
I think this is my longest blog entry...and even though i can go on about this for ..a lot more..i won't because i'm so tired of being angry. My life needs to change..that's all. With this kind of blog..i don't think any song fits my mood. Guess i can't put anything attached at the end..i do have a song actually. But i don't put it up ...saving it for next time ;). So yeah. I'm out!

Oh My GOSH!

Well, I haven't been updating recently BUT it's okay because it's not like anyone really notices. Therefore, I will not apologize for my lack of dedication.

I know for the past 2 month's, I've only written about pain and suffering. Now i can't even remember those pains because I have a person to thank...other than my lovely friends whom were all there for me in my time of need. A special guy has fallen from the sky and stolen my heart. I remember feeling so sad and not confident in myself, but now I don't remember any of that and can only feel proud and lucky. (: People know how much i've been talking about him.

I think I won't be so pessimistic from now on, unless something bad happens LOL! I feel like nothing could be wrong now, because I have loved ones and after this year I'll be free from all the little things that bothers me now. Shout out to that one person that turned my frown upside down. I know what an honest relationship is, because he's the only guy I haven't been able to keep a secret from ...it's amazing. Also, the only guy that makes me blush daily...it's insane. I'm glad I have a blog for this use because now I will be able to remember how happy I am. ☺

I'm going to end this blog so i can save some ideas for next time..♥

I guess i'll put in a song right now...I haven't done that for a while:
"Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn't matter to me
oh whoever whoever curses me, i'll only look at you,
even when i'm born again, it's still only you
even as time goes by"

Live for Love

What is life all about? Obviously I don't know, but I really doubt someone will give me a good answer anyways. I say live for love, love your family, love your neighbor (unless he's a completely rude asshole), love your friends, love your enemies for they are what gives us excitement in life. Live for love, love your life. I don't know what the heck i'm saying because i don't believe it myself.

Recently, I've been able to push aside all my anger and sadness because my friends were there for me. This is a short blog entry because there's nothing that could be said. =[ That's all (;

Freaking OUT!

Oh my goodness, any kids out there freaking out about college?

I know that this was going to happen but I didn't expect it so soon or late? I'm not sure anymore...College is the big word for me. I sat around, slacked off, cut class, talked back to teachers, joked around about my work...and now it's come back to burn me. I knew that my GPA counted for all four years and everything, yet, I still allowed myself to be so lazy and uncaring. I'm so worried now, like more worried then those who are waiting for their acceptance letters.

May 2nd is the day that I take my first SAT test, I've had little prep. and also slacked off all around. I am PRAYING for my score to be over 1600 or else I may cry like a rainy day. Right now, I'm going to get rid of all the junk I don't need...like clothes and such. REALLY! if anyone wants ANYTHING of mine just offer me more then 5 dollars? HAHAHA...except my bags and jackets(;

okay so college college college. All i know is that i'm definitely going to apply for SUNY Buffalo, SUNY Albany, St Johns, SUNY Stonybrook, CUNY Baruch, Long Island U, Barnard (?),Brooklyn College.

GOOD LUCK FOR PEOPLE TAKING SATS! I don't know how to end this again..let me give a nice song to all the '09 Grads!

My Past Month

Wow, I notice how my blogs seemed to get really off topic.

Relationship...is what two people share, right?
A month ago my relationship with someone I cared about ended, that relationship only lasted a year but I felt really depressed. That led to me skipping class and screwing myself over. I got into so much trouble, I thought of hanging myself too...I know how scary that sounds but that's the full truth.

Now, I'm healing myself with the help of my friends. I really want to thank Robert, Tat, Jackson, Kristy, Shirley(s), Kevin, Nicole, and Ivan(!) too. There's obviously more people but these people talked to me about my problems during that month. I realized how much my life will change within one year, so I'm going to focus to the sake of my life. I know, I sound really stupid because I'm explaining the situation where it's like I'm blaming my relationship with that one guy. To be honest, he deserves my thanks too. If I didn't feel the way I did when I was with him, I wouldn't realize all of these things. Thank you.

another thing, I was talking to Ivan and we were discussing preferences of the person we would want to be with. I don't know if I was asking for too much but I said

I expect him to:

• care if I get hurt


• to be confident, but not to a point where he's cocky.


• protective of me


• like me as more than just a friend, BUT no matter what, he can still be a friend.


• be able to talk about his problems, and listen to mine.


• love his family, and care for his friends.


• have common sense and be responsible for his actions


• realize that playing around with my feelings is wrong.

Is it too much to ask for? Either way, i know what i want now and I'm not going to stray towards the wrong way anymore. To finish this blog..(short blog again!)

Here's a pretty common song, but i like it:
Dead and Gone:

Dead and gone - Justin Timberlake

Backed into a corner

There's so many things happening around me everyday. Too many in which I can't seem to grab a hold of anything. Heartbreak, Friendships, School, Family....I think it's so troublesome to think about others and their problems. Yet, I seem to do it continuously even when I don't want to. I know what i'm trying to say is confusing but there's no other way I could possibly put it in words.
What conclusions I made with the subject of relationships, is if you're younger then 18 you shouldn't be in a relationship. Of course, people can argue about this but i think it's true, I understand there are people that have been together since junior high school or high school but that's a very small amount. High School sweethearts that get married is very amazing to me and I respect them, especially because that means they worked through so much even when they were young and naive.
I think when you enter high school and try to be in a relationship because people around you are in one, that's just stupid and upsets me alot. Then, I pity them if their relationship lasts until senior year then..you break up. That's a bit depressing, that's why for my senior year i definitely don't want anything to get in the way of my happiness. That way I can enjoy everything and focus, I messed myself up and I regret that. I need to be more focused!



Friendship, I realized recently how important it is. I really am thankful for the Oppa's and Unni's in my life that always keep my head up. I know I'm crazy sometimes and I guess I do think about stupid stuff a lot. I'll try not to as much from now on.

I don't know what to write but i'll end this post with one of my favorite songs.
Linkin Park - In The End

In The End - Lincoln Park

My Regents Week

Oh for you new york students, aren't you happy Regents are over and we get to go back to school?! I'm definitely not looking forward to a new cycle!
Chinese new year's almost over, and I hope all you Chinese people got many Red Envelopes.

This week I've been so bored and found out that although I'm not a Big Bang fan, it was possible for me to fall in love with Seungri, TOP and G Dragon! I guess I should just put in the video of them at the end of my post. Didn't I promise a long entry this time? Why am I running out of ideas already? Oh I got a new rant to talk about. Would you mind reading this blog if I told a story?
My Family is very close, and we have about 50 members in the immediate fam. I loved this week because I was able to spend more time with them (even though we all have family drama). Just like before I came back down to my room, I was upstairs in my cousins house playing Monopoly with my three cousins. Usually Monopoly would be boring after 5 hours straight, right? I love the fact that I spent my time so happily just playing a game where I didn't lose or win. During chinese new years, when i went over to my cousins house, I got to play rock band and Badminton on the Wii, also danced around with my cousin to 'Nobody - Wondergirls', making fun of each other because my other cousins' basement is like abandoned and tried to play Monopoly ontop of their Air Hockey table. Ahh, I actually feel like writing it all out because the time i spend with my cousins make me smile. It's not like they're all my age 'cause I'm the second youngest cousin from the first generation, the oldest is around 30+ but it's still just as fun talking with him. I was talking to my cousins' girlfriend today and she told me how not a lot of family is as close as mine is. She also brought up this idea where we don't really talk to a lot of people because we're all so close and I guess she's right about it for the older cousins. ANYWAYS! I don't really care because it's nice to know you can trust some people. It's more awesome because you knew them your entire life. Let me end it here because i'm so sleepy.

I actually wished someone read my blogs and comment because it's kind of boring like this. Comment please :]♥. If you respond please tell me about your family...thanks..."toodles". (;

Here are the videos I promised:

Strong Baby by Seungri ft GDragon (Big Bang)

Credit to nanaki244

This Love by GDragon (Big Bang)
BTW if the video isn't working just click the box again and it will open up to the video

Credit to FlyAway87
BTW if the video isn't working just click the box again and it will open up to the video

And Of Course TOP but this is only his beatboxing cause I don't see any MV of his solo song. So..please enjoy...He's cute...he's not that emo looking in real life lol!
BTW if the video isn't working just click the box again and it will open up to the video

Credit to chrissiekinz

I think i've become some youtube advertiser. haha
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Chinese New Years

Well it's Sunday January 25th 2009! I haven't had a post for a long time. :( But right now it's 3:44 am...and i'm still not asleep because I slept for 13 hours the day before. LOL! Anyways, if you're Chinese it's New Years Eve...! For Chinese New Year! I bet you're also looking forward to the Red Packets (ang bao/Hong Bao/lai si/etc.) I know I am! I hope everyone is going to have a safe chinese new year. Next time I update I promise to give a long long one because apparently I'm starting to have people click my page! :O That's actually funny because I won't know who's reading this post (unless you Call/Text/IM me out of no where talking about my post).
So Regents week is coming up for you high schoolers in New York. If you're a junior/supersoph, you're getting ready to take the English Regents. ANYONE GOING TO BE IN ROOM 343 in Edward R. Murrow High School, should definitely let me cheat off them LOL! Just kidding! why would i need to cheat, i'm Asian! oh wait, we're taking english not math! UH OH! haha, I failed at trying to be funny. I'll show you what is funny though...


Credits to Marriland


Credits to Blingchachink

Full movie of the "Eric Liang Movie" (20:00Min Long!)


Since I provided you with 2 videos and 1 "movie" I'll leave it at that instead of quoting some song, and next time..maybe i'll just put up some youtube videos instead of uploading songs then copying and waiting...slower then DSL MAN! >;[ okaayyy bye! Update probably after chinese new year. (:♥ thanks for reading...and watching. I think I should get subscribers on my youtube channel. SUBSCRIBE TO MEE♥

Vacation Time

Ah! It's literally Winter Vacation time for most people. For all the college students that have safely arrived home, start partying! Haha, and for all those High School kids that haven't got out yet and have to wait till next week..SUCKER! lol Just kidding, but tonight I'll be off on a plane flying to Vancouver then Hong Kong then to Singapore! Exciting!!~

Hopefully everyone will have a safe and happy holiday with their friends and family. I'm excited for Singapore but that meant I would be missing Christmas and New Years here...

I hope everyone has a safe holiday! this is a shot post so i'll end it with a cheery song.

"all my own, in a big red bow!
Bring me a love that i can call my own ♥"

My Only Wish This Year - Britney Spears

RANDOM BLOG..about Friends

Well I would definitely want to start off my blog saying:
Happy Birthday! to Angela Li, Ivy Goh (mom), Casey Li, Shirley Chan, and Grace Wu.

Now, I actually have no idea why I have this sudden urge to write about friendship, maybe it's because I felt really apologetic towards them for not going to anyone's birthday party. Or, maybe it's because sometimes I want to remind many people that we forget what friendship mean. So where else to find out what friendship means..other then:

1. From Dictionary.com: n.
4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement: friends of the clean air movement.
5. Friend A member of the Society of Friends; a Quaker.

2. From Urbandictionary.com:
A real friend is someone who:
a)it's okay to fart in front of.
b)you don't mind talking to on the bus for atleast 20 minutes.
c)can borrow $5 and never has to pay it back
d)you'll actually call up do stuff.

3. From Cecilia Mark:
1. Person(s) that you can be your ideal self with even through countless arguments and rivalry.

As you can see I didn't include the first 3 from dictionary.com because it was boring but 4 and 5 seems about the basics. I extremely like the ones from Urbandictionary because they made me smile, and that's a good thing because I instantly thought of someone for each.

a) it's okay to fart in front of. - Aaron
b) you don't mind talking to on the bus for atleast 20 minutes. - Angela ah Doii, Lena, Casey, Kristy, Shirley ALL TOGETHER.
c) can borrow $5 and never has to pay it back. -OBVIOUSLY GRACE.
d) you'll actually call up to do stuff. - actually Aaron. LOL

I know this is such a random blog post, but tonight I did my homework thoroughly not in like 10 minutes that it would've been, but in an hour because I reread the passage and wrote notes for class. Crazy. So excuse my jumpy/choppy comments while I'm blogging... Oh right, I was talking about friendship. MANY OF US TAKE IT FOR GRANTED. Although we read books and watch TV shows like Bob the Builder and Gossip Girl. Movies like Mean Girls, and The Clique. We still don't learn! Like for example, before the school year ended in June, you were best friends. You come back in September, thinking it'll be the same and everything goes upside down and your best friend is talking about you. I don't know if their under the influence or are they just immature. I am probably immature myself because I'm writing about this, but I suddenly want to point that out.

I have really close friends (CJEC, Angela, Lena, Casey, Kristy, Nicole, Grace, Shirleys, Yadayadayada...) and I have people I dislike (Victoria, Vivian, dude that sits next to me in English)..but i try not to make a big deal about it!(; Brain farts are insane..I literally have no idea what to write...but I'll try to think of a song appropriate for the blog!

Ah, got it! We Rock from camp rock! Since I was talking about immature people, only Disney Movies can teach you! (no offense because obviously I still watch Disney Movies a lot...) Also, Camp Rock not only teaches about Friendship, it includes Honesty, Determination/Focus, and i don't know...

"Raise your hands up in the air and scream!
We're finding our voice,
following our dreams...
Cause we rock!"

Introductions

Today my gym class had to attend a event in our school called the "HIV/AIDS Quilt". Even though it was my third year listening to the Heart Club speak about HIV/AIDS, I was still so interested. I feel sad though because while I was listening to the information and speeches, quilts made by loved ones for their friends and family surrounded us in the small gym area. I felt like crying when one of the speaker finished, his story was so sad.

The speaker (I've forgotten his name, lets call him bob) told us about his girlfriend and passed out a photo of her and showed us a picture of their dog. Bob said his girlfriend was diagnosed with HIV at age 20, and when he met her she was 30, which meant she was infected with HIV for 10 years already. While they were dating, she told him that she was HIV Positive. Bob is HIV Negative, and even though he was afraid he really loved her. Then I guess another 10 year passed and it was around new years time. In the car, Bob's girlfriend was throwing up and entered the hospital 4 days later. This was the first time she was hospitalized since finding out about her HIV. Bob's girlfriend was in the hospital from January 4th till March, and he was there everyday for hours hoping she'd get better. He ended his speech telling us that he is still HIV Negative, his girlfriend died around 2 years ago, and the one living thing in this world he loves most is their dog. That dog originally belong to his girlfriend, then both, and now his. I thought it was so touching.

I would like to have a moment of silence for all the friends and family that has died due to HIV/AIDS...the only way to stop the spreading of HIV would be to raise awareness.


Besides that, I guess I should recommend another song.
This song is a favorite of mine, it's by Celine Dion. Title is "Because you loved me". If you ask me this is a pretty appropriate for my blog today, right?
"I was blessed because I was loved by you...
You gave me strength cause you believed"

Forever & Always

I'm listening to Forever and Always by Taylor Swift. It's on her Flawless album which my cousin recommended to me, it's amazing. I would love to be able to write music the way Taylor Swift does, it makes me jealous. Anyway, last night I found out why she wrote the song, she said on Ellen that it's a song about Joe Jonas. Maybe I'm being biased but I started to dislike Joe, but not Nick of course haha. Either way, today I had been replaying this one song on my iTunes and it's very true for all heartbreaks.

Every time I hear the chorus of this song, I think of my boyfriend and our relationship of 9 months together. Even though I'm only 16, I feel I had thought too much about the future since I was very young. I guess I blame my parents for creating this feeling where because of them it felt like I shouldn't trust people because even the one you love and have a baby with could leave you so easily. This feeling soon disappeared though, because once I went into Seth Low I.S. 96, I met people that treated me really nice and I slowly took down this wall that I built up, but there was a moment even in Junior High School where I was disappointed in friendships. Now I'm in my third year of high school and last year I met my boyfriend, I guess what I want to say is that 'Forever and Always' reminds me of what might happen if people trust too deeply, like what my parents showed me. It's like a reminder of the past with my family and friends. I don't know if others can hear the disappointment in the verses that Taylor sings or maybe it's just me but I feel it through her words.

This song has really made an impression on me that I had to write a blog about it. These are my favorite verses of the song to me:

"I hold onto the night where you
looked me in the eye and told me that you love me....
I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called...
I flash back to when we said forever and always"

Heres the song:

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